When a Change is needed.

What do I love?
What makes me happy every time I do it? Is there anything? Yes, being with children. Children make me happy. Helping other people makes me happy. But what can I do on my own that makes me happy.
I am so frustrated with how I am living my life right now. I don't want to sit down on my computer for most of the day. I want to be active. I want to move and be strong and have enough money to be able to go places. I want to be able to play tag with the little kids. I want to love using my body. I want to love to do physical things. I want to do things other than watch TV.
I don't want to sit down. I don't want to run my life the way I have been running it.  But how do I change? The change that I need to make is going to be a difficult one. But It can start with changing the way that I have my room set up. I need to change it a little bit and I can start by doing that now.
I just have to get up and do it. Right now.

Out of Balance

What is wrong?

Right now.

Something is wrong right now in my life and I need to fix it. 

What do I do all day?

Without School

1. Watch Doctor Who

is that bad? No I just do it waaaaaay to much

2.  Get on the computer and check Facebook, Tumblr, Deviantart, e-mail, Pinterest, anything else I can think of... Just to waste time

Is that bad? No, I just do it waaaaaaaaaay to much!

3. Watch something else

Is that bad? Yeah, wasting time.

4. Go to friends houses and watch more tv there

l-a-m-e

5. go to friends houses and sit and talk

great sometimes, but when that and tv is all we do? No thanks.

So I need a change.

What is that change?

Change

1. give myself a limit on Doctor Who

Fine I can do that, and I can have exceptions but only with friends and only if I have followed my rules

2. Keep track of each time I get on the internet

How long I am on, and What I do while I am on for an entire week

3. with family, it's fine, friends it's fine. 

More than 4 hours a day? Probably not

4. go to a friends house to DO something. 

Party with a movie, just a party, going out to do something, staying in to do something. anything!

5. make a list of things to do. 

Do them

ok. 

I have some changes. Now I just need to do them.

Implement them.

I can do that.

Serve

Pretty sure that is the best thing I can do.

When I go to friends houses, offer to do things for them or with them to make their lives better

When I am at home do more things for my family that wouldn't normally get done.

When I am by myself, think about someone else. Make them something to make them happy.

What would Jesus Do?

He would Serve people.

He would help them to become better by setting an example.

I don't know how to do that very well but I can certainly try.

I can try

I can do 

I can be better

Art

I want to do it.

I want to be an artist.

I want to animate a superhero cartoon, preferably with the Flash.

I want to illustrate a children's book.

I want to help people see the world better.

How can I do that with just art?

 How can I do that?

Family

I need to have better relationships with my family.

My brothers need me to be here for them

I am not right now

I need a job so I can get money to treat them

I don't have to have money to treat them

 can be a kind, fun sister without that

I want the be the sister that they grow up and still call because they miss her.

The kind that they hang out with during high school and don't care what other people think.