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Thursday, January 31, 2013

Good Morning!

Happiness, I have found, is not a matter of chance.
2 Nephi 2:25 - "Adam fell that men might be, men are that they might have joy."
Joy is not elusive, not in the slightest.
My friend and I have started a wellness program, of sorts. Once a week we plan out what we are going to do, in a general sense ( it is very open as life sometimes gets in the way). Here is ours.
3 goals a week: these should be something I have been wanting to do but have not found the time.
1 hour of something new: this can just be something different, and it needs to happen every day.
20 minutes of scripture study, meditation, and exercise.
3 conscience random acts of kindness: every day
1 positive journaling experience
1 note to someone thanking or praising them.
I have done all of these things in the past without realizing I was doing them, and it makes me so proud to realize with hindsight that I have been pursuing the same course for so long.

My God is wonderful, he has blessed me with this knowledge and the ability to see the silver lining on the storm clouds of the hurricane that has surrounded me and my family. He has given me some perspective. No matter what happens today, in 10 hours it will be time for dinner, in 14 hours time for bed and tomorrow at 6 I'll wake up tomorrow knowing I did my best today and I can do my best tomorrow.
You can only make a mistake once, the second time it is a choice.
Choose to be happy.
Find joy in the journey.

Oh yeah!

Joe and I finished Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief last night!

On to Sea of Monsters!

Goal: to finish before the movie comes out!


Thursday, January 24, 2013

The Joys of Hospital Living

Wow... what a week.
Last week I was sick and stayed home from work for 3 days, then it was the weekend. Yay!
So I go back to work on Monday. It felt good be back into a regular schedule.  And then around 3 my mom sends me a text:
"Back in hospital going into surgery right away"
Great.
At first I thought she was joking, no such luck.
So after work I go in and stay the night, slept for 3 hours and watched George of the Jungle and started the 5 hour Pride and Prejudice. She almost fainted while going to the bathroom. Did you know you can fit 5 people into a bathroom? Well they can and thankfully that night she was made a priority, which was saying something as that floor was full of patients.  Rough night. 
Next Day:
The surgeon comes an puts an antibiotic into her sack around her lung through her chest tube. The purpose of this is to inflame the outside of the lung and the sack around the lung to create scar tissue that will act kind of like flue, keeping the lung open so it doesn't collapse anymore.  After 2 shots of morphine, toradol, and a numbing agents provided by the doctor, her pain, on a scale from 1 to 10, was a 20.... for 45 minutes straight then it slowly, ever so slowly, went down to an 8 over the next 4 hours. 
Longest 5 hours of my life. Before bed she did go on a walk, obviously feeling much better than a few hours before. Good news is that night we both got 8 hours of sleep and we had a SUPER nice (and cute) CNA named Trinity.
The 3rd day was pretty good, she was able to go to the bathroom by herself and she went on a a few walks. The Pulminologist did order a test, which she was super afraid of because the way he described it... well it was scary.
"We are going to blow albuterol directly into your lungs and inflate them as much as they can go." He told us.  "Will I need 1 or 2 shots of morphine?" My mother asked.
After pausing he answered "Anything we do right now is going to hurt."
Way to get her excited! *eyes roll*
She asked several nurses what it was going to feel like and the one who gave her a real and truthful answer, Matt, she didn't believe. Probably because he was the one who tricked her into walking ALL THE WAY to the window her first time staying in the hospital. ;) She finally did believe the nurse from respiratory who explained it like this: "First we are going to do a nebulizer, which just is an oxygenated form of albuterol to help your lungs function better. Then we will blow air into your lungs to expand then and you will suck in and then blow out, against the air that is blowing in." And that is exactly what happened. Thankfully that didn't hurt at all, in fact she said she felt extremely good after that, like she had just got off the tredmill. Now she just has to do that 4 times a day so her lung scars in the right places. 
Today her chest tube came out and she might be able to come home! I came home this morning and slept for a few hours then went grocery shopping.
She had an x-ray but they still don't know if she will be coming home tonight or not. 
I am glad my work is being so kind. They said I could take as much time as I needed. If she has to stay in the hospital, I'll probably sleep with her tonight and then go to work in the morning, if she comes home then I'll stay and take care of her. Last time she said home was a lot harder than the hospital because everything was so much farther away. 
Lisa (our Realtor) gave me a ride home today, she commented that someone my age shouldn't have to do what I am doing for my mom, at least not yet. But here I am, having done it 3 times in the last year. I think that is ok, life experience. I am glad I have the ability to be there for my family and to help them with what ever they need. 

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

What to Do

Bored.
Seriously, I have nothing to do. I need the money, so I am staying at work. But I would soooooo much rather be somewhere else!
I would love to just sit and play the piano. Or my cello.
Play my instruments and clean my room.

Maybe I should have something fun I do. Something to look forward to every day after work. 
Something that is active. 
Like a swimming pool in the sky that is heated!
Or a cruise ship over the land!
yeah that's the life. 
Maybe something a little more realistic. Drawing, singing, dancing, something... beautiful.