Out of Balance

What is wrong?

Right now.

Something is wrong right now in my life and I need to fix it. 

What do I do all day?

Without School

1. Watch Doctor Who

is that bad? No I just do it waaaaaay to much

2.  Get on the computer and check Facebook, Tumblr, Deviantart, e-mail, Pinterest, anything else I can think of... Just to waste time

Is that bad? No, I just do it waaaaaaaaaay to much!

3. Watch something else

Is that bad? Yeah, wasting time.

4. Go to friends houses and watch more tv there

l-a-m-e

5. go to friends houses and sit and talk

great sometimes, but when that and tv is all we do? No thanks.

So I need a change.

What is that change?

Change

1. give myself a limit on Doctor Who

Fine I can do that, and I can have exceptions but only with friends and only if I have followed my rules

2. Keep track of each time I get on the internet

How long I am on, and What I do while I am on for an entire week

3. with family, it's fine, friends it's fine. 

More than 4 hours a day? Probably not

4. go to a friends house to DO something. 

Party with a movie, just a party, going out to do something, staying in to do something. anything!

5. make a list of things to do. 

Do them

ok. 

I have some changes. Now I just need to do them.

Implement them.

I can do that.

Serve

Pretty sure that is the best thing I can do.

When I go to friends houses, offer to do things for them or with them to make their lives better

When I am at home do more things for my family that wouldn't normally get done.

When I am by myself, think about someone else. Make them something to make them happy.

What would Jesus Do?

He would Serve people.

He would help them to become better by setting an example.

I don't know how to do that very well but I can certainly try.

I can try

I can do 

I can be better

Art

I want to do it.

I want to be an artist.

I want to animate a superhero cartoon, preferably with the Flash.

I want to illustrate a children's book.

I want to help people see the world better.

How can I do that with just art?

 How can I do that?

Family

I need to have better relationships with my family.

My brothers need me to be here for them

I am not right now

I need a job so I can get money to treat them

I don't have to have money to treat them

 can be a kind, fun sister without that

I want the be the sister that they grow up and still call because they miss her.

The kind that they hang out with during high school and don't care what other people think.

The Magnificent Power-Eye! On his discovering Adventure!

The Magnificent Power-Eye!

On his discovering Adventure!

"I can do Anything better than you can!"

Television is eating my world.

I don't do anything. 

I watch TV and think about watching it and go to watch it and watch with friends. 

I am a becoming a very lazy person, a proactive lazy person.

I plan out my lazyness.

I need to be proactive in not being lazy. Doing things that really matter. 

Making quality things. 

Doing quality things.

Becoming the person I know I can be.

The only problem is.... I have to do it.

And I can.

Tomorrow is Christmas. 

Rather than sit around all day I am going to do something. 

Run.

Draw.

Make cookies.

Do something nice for someone else.

Learn something new.

Clean something.

I'll try it all!

"I've Heard it Both Ways"

I would very much enjoy owning this. My friend the 11th doctor has one! he got it for Christmas! SUPER amazing!

Oh and just so you know Setting 96 sends holograms to other places so people don't get scared when watching scary Doctor Who episodes!

Finished Psych.

Now catching up with Doctor Who so I can watch the Christmas special with My friends Doctors 10, 11, and 12!

I love Doctor Who!

"nothing's impossible"

And if this is the wrong video Then this is the right one.

Sent to me by my great friend, the Music Man

"WOOOHOOOO!"

FINALS ARE DONE!

"Totally Awesome!"

Here is how talking to old friends makes me feel:

And this is the second time!

Actually on Black Friday I ran into a guy I knew from High School. Weird! Especially since I moves 5hours away from where I went to high school!

I am fairly certain I need to find somewhere to dance down here! Not sure where, not sure with who. But somewhere!

"It's a Wonderful Life"

I am fairly certain I don't deserve my wonderful friends!

And my family? I must have done something AMAZING in the pre-existence to deserve having them as my family!

My life is so blessed, so wonderful!

I shouldn't even want to ask for more!

Yet I need more. I do need some things. 

I would like to think that I won't need things later, but I will.

Yet God, in his infinite mercy will give me everything I need when I ask in faith.

When I need something, I need to do is ask him.

Just ask.

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5–6.

when I think of that, How can I not shout for joy? 

"Can I let the Trees do the Talking?"

Please excuse me, I'm not thinking clear

It must just be stress

But I likely shouldn't be here, I'm such a mess

I never really ever know what to say

When all of my emotions get in the way

I'm just trying to get us on the same page (Wish I could explain)

I always get it better right afterward

When all the wrong impressions are said and heard

How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey

Wish I could explain The things that I have to work out

I don't feel right

What has come over me, I'm about

To lose my mind

I never really ever know what to say

When all of my emotions get in the way

I'm just trying to get us on the same page (Wish I could explain)

I always get it better right afterward

When all the wrong impressions are said and heard

How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey

Wish I could explain

Can I let the trees do the talking

Can I let the ground do the walking

Can I let the sky fill what's missing

Can I let my mouth do the listening, the listening

I never really ever know what to say

When all of my emotions get in the way

I'm just trying to get us on the same page

I always get it better right afterward

When all the wrong impressions are said and heard

How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey

Wish I could explain

What I mean to say

Lights: the Listening

"Well... That went well."

this is how I am feeling lately

e-m-b-a-r-a-s-s-e-d

It seems that I am not very good at handling my relationships with males

If they are friends, I think I am just fine

But anything more?

I just come apart.

Pretty sure I need to work on that...

Well, maybe if I just pretend I have done nothing wrong it will all work itself out

maybe...

Perhaps not. Pretty sure I just want a friend right now. Just a friend

"Keep Moving Forward"

Papers, Texts, Thor, FF XIII, Drawings, Cleaning, Checks, Money, Job, Friends, Boys, Brothers, Family, Phone Calls, X-Men, Lights, Guitar, Justin Beiber, Cell Phone, Roses, Feelings, Freak Out, Guilt, Clam, Institute, Conference, Procrastination, Computer, Art Paper, Music, COLD, Socks, Coat, Sweater, Temple, Math, Airplane, Credits = Balance

Yeah, makes no sense. I know. 

But this is what happens in life. Everything happens all at once and it is.. WONDERFUL!

I don't know how much better it can get. I know it can get better, It has been proved once before!

With General Conference!

Now I am so happy, yet I still have to write a paper... and I am procrastinating!

Yesterday one of my best friends down here motivated me to run with words from my favorite show!

"Keep moving forward. You've got two good legs. So get up and use them. You're strong enough to make your own path."

Oh my goodness! Now I have to put more FMAB on here just because I found some amazing ones!

I know, that is probably WAY to much awesomeness for one post.... I'll have to limit myself next time!

"Best. Day. Ever!"

181st General Conference Saturday Highlights

by - Elle

President Thomas S. Monson

Contribute to the Temple fund for people who can't afford to go to the temple

President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

God is Amazing. 

"Compared to God we are nothing, yet to God we are everything."

Heavenly Father loves me. and you.

President Boyd K. Packer

Things to do
- Get Married

- Heed Warnings

- Keep the Commandments

- Use Agency

- Listen to the Spirit

Promise - The Holy Ghost will leas us forward if we do what is right

The Spirit normally talks in Feelings, not soud

Promise - If I heed the promptings of the spirit then I will be protected.

I am a young crow, if i follow the old crow I will go in the right direction.

Elder L. Tom Perry

1 Be bold in the deceleration of Jesus Christ

Through Christ we can find the ultimate contentment

2. Be rightous examples to others

There is no fear in love!

I need to share my beliefs of the restored gospel of Jesus Christ

Elder Richard G. Scott

Tools - Scriptures

" A memorized scripture becomes an enduring friend."

Scriptures are like a filling cabinet  that holds - values - friends and - truth 

consistently read the Book of Mormon

Always give thanks for the things I recieve

Elder David A. Bendar

Go to https://lds.org/youth/family-history?lang=eng

Use the Spirit of Elijiah

Do Family History and go to the Temple often, instead of playing online games and video games

Elder D. Todd Christofferson

A loving God wants us to learn from our sin, which is why we mus repent (my thoughts)

Elder Neil L. Anderson

Where is your Faith?

"Acting in faith, they began to multiply and replenish the earth"

Don't be judgmental of couples with no children.

Children are a blessing

Sister Barbara Thompson

The spirit speaks in many ways

D&C 6

Study the scriptures, listen to the prophets, live in faith

Have a firm testimony

"I didn't keep my testimony, my testimony kept me."

L. Whitney Clayton

What I think will happen can change in an instant.

This is the work of God

Ian S. Ardern

"In family relationships love is really spelled T-I-M-E."

Let us be a quick to knees as we are to text

Identify time wasting factors in life

Pray, Ready, Study, Learn, Apply = Draw near to God

LeGrand R Curtis Jr.

Invite others to come and serve!

Never can I repay thee lord, but I can love thee!

Carl B. Cook

Can do, Will do

Most of what we worry about is not of eternal significance and if it is the Lord will help us.

How will he lead us today?

Look up, step up, cheer up

It is better to look up

And by the way... Lindsay got conference BLACKOUT! CONGRATS LINDSAY! 

"Whelmed"

I need money.

I need a job.

I need to pay for things.

I don't particularly want to do any of that.

I am definitively Whelmed.

Ever feel like no matter what you do you are behind everyone?

I feel this way... ALL the time!

But eventually I will get there.

Eventually I will be done with school.

Eventually I will finally get into my house!

Sometimes no matter what I try, I miss the target.

But then again, sometimes I decide I am to lazy to try.

And that is completely my fault!

So then I feel like I just want to crawl up and sleep and not do anything but veg.... 

Awful.

But at least I can start trying at any time right?

Turn everything around with one action.

I can do it.