Day 1: Body for Life

Day 1:

My mom and I are starting the "Body for Life" program today. 

It is a 12 week program that helps you get your life and body in shape. 

To start this out, I have started reading the book Body for Life and it asks some questions that help me to find my reasons for creating a better body and life for myself.

When you look at yourself, do you honestly like what you see?

Not really. I like parts of myself, but most of the time when I see myself in the mirror, I look for the good as well as the bad. Yet I see more bad than good. I remember a time, not too long ago, where I looked exactly how I wanted to, I felt wonderful. I could go where I wanted and I didn't want to eat everything in site, but it was ok if I wanted ice cream or some cookies. Now, when I am eating ice cream I think about how disappointed I will be when I look in the mirror. While I know I look fine, I know I can feel better about myself. 

How do you feel deep down inside?

I feel lazy. I don't want to have the small belly I have developed. I don't feel good about the way I look and want to feel comfortable in every article of clothing in my wardrobe. 

How do you really feel about yourself?

Disappointed. I know I can do better, but I haven't been trying to be healthy, I just haven't cared. It is time to change that. I am ready to love myself and be able to do all the things I want to do!

Are you confident, energetic, and strong?

I have outward confidence. I have some energy. But I wish I was stronger. I need to feel confident when I am by myself. I need the energy and gumption to get up and work. I need to be strong.

Do you often wonder if you're on the right path?

I know that I am making good decisions as far as "major life" choices. But in the small/large things like eating healthy, these are the decisions that are a little harder. 

What are the pros and cons of continuing in the direction you're going?

If I continue I will be able to watch TV whenever I want, I will be fine for a while. But If I continue to eat the way I am I will become a fat young adult who doesn't want to do anything but eat and watch TV. That is not what I want to do with my life. I want to be athletic, outgoing, confident. 

Would you like to create a brighter future

Everyday.

"When  you answer these questions, your reasons for making the decisions to change will become clear. When they do, wright them down on a piece of paper, and read what you've written first thing in the morning and again at night before you go to sleep. Do this every day throughout your 12-week Program. These reasons will remain your guiding light, your beacon, during the journey you have now decided to begin."

My reasons for change?

• Ongoing confidence
• Satisfaction with myself and my choices
• A way to keep my body strong and active my entire life

Next question.
What are the five most important  specific accomplishments you need to make, within the next 12 weeks, for you to be pleased with the progress of your body and life?
Within in 12 weeks I want to:

1. Feel comfortable in my new Nightwing shirt
2. Want to excersize
3. Lose 15-20 lbs
4. Feel comfortable with myself when I sit down
5. Not have a belly

Now I have my goals. I know what I want. I can achieve it. I have the means, the ability, the will power, and the support.
It is hard to put my feelings and what I truly want on a blog. I don't know who reads it but I don't want sympathy, or people telling me I am fine the way I am. I already know I am fine. I just want to be better.

"The worst enemy of great is good." 

I can be better than I am, and that is a goal I can strive for to be my best self.