Day 1: Body for Life

Day 1:

My mom and I are starting the "Body for Life" program today. 

It is a 12 week program that helps you get your life and body in shape. 

To start this out, I have started reading the book Body for Life and it asks some questions that help me to find my reasons for creating a better body and life for myself.

When you look at yourself, do you honestly like what you see?

Not really. I like parts of myself, but most of the time when I see myself in the mirror, I look for the good as well as the bad. Yet I see more bad than good. I remember a time, not too long ago, where I looked exactly how I wanted to, I felt wonderful. I could go where I wanted and I didn't want to eat everything in site, but it was ok if I wanted ice cream or some cookies. Now, when I am eating ice cream I think about how disappointed I will be when I look in the mirror. While I know I look fine, I know I can feel better about myself. 

How do you feel deep down inside?

I feel lazy. I don't want to have the small belly I have developed. I don't feel good about the way I look and want to feel comfortable in every article of clothing in my wardrobe. 

How do you really feel about yourself?

Disappointed. I know I can do better, but I haven't been trying to be healthy, I just haven't cared. It is time to change that. I am ready to love myself and be able to do all the things I want to do!

Are you confident, energetic, and strong?

I have outward confidence. I have some energy. But I wish I was stronger. I need to feel confident when I am by myself. I need the energy and gumption to get up and work. I need to be strong.

Do you often wonder if you're on the right path?

I know that I am making good decisions as far as "major life" choices. But in the small/large things like eating healthy, these are the decisions that are a little harder. 

What are the pros and cons of continuing in the direction you're going?

If I continue I will be able to watch TV whenever I want, I will be fine for a while. But If I continue to eat the way I am I will become a fat young adult who doesn't want to do anything but eat and watch TV. That is not what I want to do with my life. I want to be athletic, outgoing, confident. 

Would you like to create a brighter future

Everyday.

"When  you answer these questions, your reasons for making the decisions to change will become clear. When they do, wright them down on a piece of paper, and read what you've written first thing in the morning and again at night before you go to sleep. Do this every day throughout your 12-week Program. These reasons will remain your guiding light, your beacon, during the journey you have now decided to begin."

My reasons for change?

• Ongoing confidence
• Satisfaction with myself and my choices
• A way to keep my body strong and active my entire life

Next question.
What are the five most important  specific accomplishments you need to make, within the next 12 weeks, for you to be pleased with the progress of your body and life?
Within in 12 weeks I want to:

1. Feel comfortable in my new Nightwing shirt
2. Want to excersize
3. Lose 15-20 lbs
4. Feel comfortable with myself when I sit down
5. Not have a belly

Now I have my goals. I know what I want. I can achieve it. I have the means, the ability, the will power, and the support.
It is hard to put my feelings and what I truly want on a blog. I don't know who reads it but I don't want sympathy, or people telling me I am fine the way I am. I already know I am fine. I just want to be better.

"The worst enemy of great is good." 

I can be better than I am, and that is a goal I can strive for to be my best self.

"They Cannot Fall"

I am so blessed.

My Father in Heaven keeps sending me blessings, left and right, up and down, sideways and crossways. Even diagonal.

I have a new plan that encompasses everything I have been wanting to do for the past few months. I have an interview for an additional job that I want. I will be starting a new chapter in my life.

Just when I was getting discouraged, starting to give up. And BAM!

Blessings!

With God all things are possible. I can do anything. Because I have God on my side.

27 And Jesus looking upon them saith, With men it is impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.

Mark 10:27

 

Because what I am going to do, I cannot do on my own. I could try and fail.

Not with God.

 

12 And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind,  yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall. 

Helaman 5:12 

 

Cannot: to be unable to do otherwise than

If you follow Christ, there is no possible way that you can stray or fall away from the path. It is impossible. You CANNOT.

And so I will succeed.



“I’d much rather watch football than football.” -- Jarod Kintz

While I didn't wink at anyone (like I had promised) I did go to a Slip-n-Slide social for the institute on Saturday. I met my friend Miah there and we went down the slid a few times, which was awesome. Then played soccer.
Never before have I been that aggressive in any team sport I have ever played. And I had a BLAST! WE played for 2 hours! I did hurt my ankle, but it was so worth it!
I told Miah to let me know next time he has a co ed soccer game.
Speaking of Soccer, I am reading Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone and Hagrid was talking about Soccer. O_o He should be saying Football. I remember when the books were coming out, I had to wait a few extra weeks because they had to go through the book and change some of the words. Then a few years ago I read the British version Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone, to me it just seemed more magical. I would love to read all of the books as they were written, none of the words changed.

I started watching Smallville again, picking up where I left off. I am starting to remember why I stopped watching. I have heard that the middle seasons 4 and 5 got a little raunchy. So far... I have heard correctly. I am going to have to start censoring my episodes I watch, reading the synopsis first and then either watching the episode or just sticking with the synopsis. Because some of these, don't seem to have any value to the story... *sigh* at least I have the ability to sensor them myself!

Spinach Puffs

I sometimes get brilliant ideas of what to write about on her...
But then I go to sleep.
Amazing idea's always happen right as I am getting into bed, and by that time I am worn out from the day. I wonder if I could write them all down quickly... only if I invented a short hand! Or just learned short hand!

Maybe I will, that would be cool, then I could write as fast as I wanted, really. or at least as fast as I am thinking.
And now we are talking about waxing... hmmm.
aaaaaaaaaaand.............. Bored.

"You Are A Go Getter" "I Did Not Know That!"

I went to Institute last night with the intent of making some friends.

I left with a better picture of what I am doing in my life.

And what I need to keep doing. 

So I am going to be a little bit bored, hey, Jack, that never hurt anyone!

I can find ways to make life interesting til this stage is over. 

I can grow spiritually and mentally . I can improve myself as I work toward my ultimate goal  of:

No more Debt would be best. For everyone. 

But especially for me. 

But I guess,   no good deed goes unpunished. 

But I also need to remember: No good deed goes unblessed. 

God is more powerful than any debt collector. 

More powerful than a locomotive.

Able to leap tall buildings in a single bound.

And able to give second chances to everyone. 

Our God is a God of second chances. 

Tiptoe Higher

You know, doing things for other people just because you can, feels excellent. 

Sometimes the things people do disgust me.

You can find kindness in the oddest places. 

Drawing is amazing.

Today I feel Roman.

And Bored. 

I wish I lived next to a Forever 21. 

I want to play my Viola. 

And the Piano... and the Cello and my flute.

I want to live near  some friends that I can do things with all the time.

And not have it be just a one-sided friendship. Equal effort on both sides.

Maybe I will get that when Renee comes home. If I can convince her to come live with me!

Probably not.

Imagine Dragons is awesome.

My thoughts are disjointed.

But this is nice to just type what I am thinking without having to put it together.

I like having everything on the right side of the page.

Nice

Time for a nap. 

Hope Burns Bright!

The greatest enemy is not outside.

The greatest enemy is inside. 

The natural man.

Reminds me of a quote by Lemony Snicket.

Many old folktales portray Death as a cloaked figure who knocks on the doors of the souls he has come to whisk away, but that is not always the way of the world.  Sometimes Death may approach the door very slowly and very loudly, so that by the time he knocks everyone in the neighborhood is aware of his approach, or he may prefer to pick the lock of your kitchen until you stroll downstairs in your bathrobe and learn that he has been waiting for you, sitting in your favorite chair and rearranging your silverware when he got bored

Trouble and Death seem to have similar habits. 

Sometimes Trouble will march up,  one-man-band style, guns a blazing. 

Other times, he is a thief in the night, kidnapping all of the good luck that was waiting for you and taking it's place in a crude impersonation of something it can only aspire to be.  

Perhaps I  am thinking of this the wrong way,

Maybe  Trouble is a friend just trying to  give me a fighting chance.

But Death  and Trouble are different. 

Death is a release from this life and your path to the next, where we will get to be with God.

Trouble and Hope should be compared. Like twins, different sides of the same coin. 

Hope can brighten a day like  the first rays of sunshine in the morning. Where Trouble  can plunge everything into darkness, a cloud of ash trying to smother.

But , that same ash brings new life, sweeter life. As it sinks into the ground it become an excellent fertilizer for the hope that begins to break through the dirt.